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The New York Trilogy by Paul Auster

I’m still confused by this book, but I’m going to write about it as well as I can for you, so that if you decide to read it for yourself, you can be marginally less confused than I was. You should decide to check it out, because as confused as I was, I was also blown away and thoroughly intrigued. It’s a supremely written and wonderfully self-aware work of fiction that poses some pretty serious questions about existence and identity.

The New York Trilogy, by Paul Auster, is a single book that I have, of average length (308 pages), which features three separate stories: City of Glass, Ghosts, and The Locked Room. If you can see, I’ve italicized those three titles, because they are advertised as three separate novels. The thing is, they’re really short! City of Glass, the longest, is only 130 pages long, and Ghosts doesn’t even hit the triple digits, sitting at a mere 70. But they were all published separately, as novels, in 1985 and 86, even though apparently you can’t really get them individually anymore. This was my first source of confusion, mostly because I struggled with how to document my reading of the books. I’ve decided to just write one blog post, but it has three entries in my book journal. Around three-quarters of the way through the last book, I realised they should have just been one entry, but obviously it was too late by then. These are the dilemmas I face in my lifestyle. #bibliophileproblems

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not being on a boat by Esme Claire Keith

If you’ve ever worked in any kind of customer service position, then Esme Claire Keith’s not being on a boat is probably not something you want to read. But that’s okay, because I read it for you, and you can read all about it right here.

not being on a boat is about Rutledge, an aging man whose wife just left him somewhat messily, and whose business seems to have been a little on the unsavoury side, but really it’s never specified. Rutledge flees his broken life at home, although he never says it quite like that, by booking himself into an all-inclusive, around-the-world cruise on the luxury cruise ship the Mariola. One day, not long into the cruise, one of the ports of call in the Caribbean goes awry and the ship needs to leave in a hurry, leaving behind a sizeable chunk of both passengers and staff. Things go from bad to worse, and soon the cruise ship becomes a covert war zone, where the biggest billfolds are winning. It shows good faith, community, selfishness, humanity pushed to their limits, as every passenger tries to keep his or her all-inclusive more inclusive than anyone else’s.

The novel is called a dystopia by whoever wrote the blurb on the back of it. It’s called a funny approach to modern-day luxury, told from “the refreshingly blunt point of view of a man unable to see beyond his own needs.” I completely disagree with this assessment of Rutledge’s voice, a voice that was the exact opposite of refreshing. His flat, emotionless tone carries on relentlessly for three hundred pages, and his inability to look beyond himself becomes exhausting after the first few chapters. A “unique” style featuring “flawed” characters is an increasingly common narrative crutch that quickly becomes at least annoying, if not unbearable, if it lacks underlying substance; I felt that Keith’s novel lacked that underlying substance.

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The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood

If you’re keeping your eye open for something to really validate your hopeless outlook on life and humanity, look no further: Margaret Atwood’s The Blind Assassin will shatter your dreams and rip your faith out from under you, be it in love or marriage or goodness or even faith itself. That’s right. It will make you question your faith in faith.

In all seriousness, though, this novel was extraordinarily well written and captivatingly structured, although I think the structure also sort of prevents the book from drawing the reader in right off the bat. The opening line—“Ten days after the war ended, my sister Laura [Chase] drove a car off a bridge.”—is definitely intriguing, but only three pages are dedicated to elaborating on that statement. After two pages of prose and one newspaper excerpt, the novel turns into another novel, Laura Chase’s The Blind Assassin. In total, Atwood’s novel tells four stories simultaneously, a tactic designed to keep readers on the edge of their seats, but at the same time one that disjoints the fictional worlds a little too much to completely submerse the reader.

Iris Chase, the novel’s protagonist and primary narrator, is writing down her life’s story for a granddaughter she never sees. She’s writing down the truth, she says, which is the only thing she has left to offer. Her narrative blends the present-day Iris—the 83-year old woman who resents the fact that she can’t fend for herself anymore, who dreads the death she feels lurking just around the corner—and the young Iris of the 1920s, the 1930s, growing up in turbulent times with a dysfunctional family. She writes about the Chase family history, about her grandfather’s button factory that got passed down to her father and eventually destroyed her family, about her uptight and proper grandmother, about her unstable and compassionate mother, whose compassion was reserved only for those outside of her own home. She writes about her sister Laura, her odd, unreliable little sister who threw everyone for a loop, from childhood right through to adulthood, to when she drove the car off of a bridge. Iris mourns her losses, but she mourns them from a distance, bitterly, in a tone that doesn’t suggest “loss” so much as “betrayal.” It’s Iris who ripped my heart out and had me questioning the very purpose of love, of life.

Alongside Iris’s narrative, in alternating sections of four or five chapters each, the reader gets to slowly make his or her way through Laura Chase’s novel The Blind Assassin, published posthumously. In this novel, two lovers meet in secret, a man in hiding and a woman on edge. They are from different worlds entirely, he a lower-class freedom fighter, she an upper-class party-goer, and they meet intermittently for passionate lovemaking and inspired storytelling. What little money he still makes, he makes from writing stories, and she begs him to make one up for her. In between scotch, cigarettes and sex, he tells her a story about an ancient society of idol-worshippers, child slavery, virgin sacrifices, wild tribal massacres, the fourth storyline of Atwood’s novel.

As Atwood’s novel progresses, the connections between Iris’s present and past stories, as well as the connections between Iris’s narrative and Laura’s novel, unfurl and reveal themselves in profound (albeit predictable) ways. By the end of the book, no stone is left unturned and the truth has been laid out, in its entirety, for the reader to inspect. It was refreshing to read a book with such a concrete ending. And while I say the loose ends are tied up somewhat predictably, I wasn’t upset by this. It didn’t seem like Atwood was backing out of anything by having the course of actions take an already-worn path (because she wasn’t). This book wasn’t a story about things that have never happened before (except for those sci-fi excerpts in Laura’s novel): it was a book articulating loss and turmoil in a way they’ve never before been articulated. It’s not about Iris’s story as much as it’s about her outlook; it’s about reaction more than action.

All in all, I recommend this book and look forward to continuing to read Atwood’s writing. In addition to being an amazing writer who tells incredible stories about faith and humanity and good and evil, I really life the effect her writing has on my own. Ha. The only other Atwood novel I’ve read is The Handmaid’s Tale, which I also wholeheartedly recommend, and I hear her collection Moral Disorder is also pretty swell. You probably just can’t really go wrong when you’re choosing something, honestly.

Happy reading! Smile <3

Coins and keys and feelings

But what’s left?

After the rain has dried and the mud has hardened and the dust has settled, what is there to hide the cracks?

Nothing.

They sit there exposed, glaring lines in the foundation, endless black depths into which coins and keys and feelings can fall for days, forever, and nobody hears them hit the bottom. People trip, people fall on these cracks. They curse these spaces in what should be a smooth exterior; they begrudge these inconsistencies. They wait impatiently for someone to come fill them, and then the filling sinks and cracks and they wait impatiently again while their toes catch and they strain to save face despite these incontinent gashes in expectations.

So she fills them with dirt and buries the seeds and she tends them daily until they grow and blossom and they aren’t cracks any longer but gardens.

—Go around, she tells them.

So they go around, and some of them kick the flowers and others pick them, and she tends them daily so they grow and blossom and they aren’t cracks any longer but gardens. She picks herself tulips, roses, daffodils, and she puts them in her hair. They walk past and they stop sometimes, they ask where to find flowers like hers, and she picks one for them. They wear them in their hair.

She doesn’t lose her coins or keys or feelings anymore.

1Q84 by Haruki Murakami

“Part thriller, part romance, part hard-boiled detective fiction, part porn-for-introverts: 100 per cent Murakami” — Joel Wheeler

Read this book.

I read it, obviously, and it was absolutely amazing. It was emotional and compelling, it was surreal (obviously) and boundary-pushing, it was original, it was everything I would expect from Haruki Murakami, at its best. The novel was published in three volumes, although the publication I have contains all three, totaling 925 pages of awesome. I had planned on leaving 1Q84 until I had a bit more time to spare, and then I realised I’m probably not really going to have any more time to spare at any point in the near future, so I decided to tackle it now, before my summer classes start. I was absolutely prepared to spend weeks reading it, it being as long as it is, and me having a particularly long track record with Murakami novels.

I finished it in ten days.

I spent almost every spare moment I had reading it. I stayed up too late and had a terribly hard time being on time for a good deal of commitments, like work, and also work. Once I finally got to work, whenever there was a bit of down time, out came 1Q84. On the bus, on the subway, standing in line for the bus or subway, whenever I could read this book I would read it. I was so intrigued, so drawn into the world Murakami creates in his novel, and his style is so straightforward that it was unbelievably easy to pick up and start again from wherever you left off, whether that was the start of a chapter, the start of a break, or in the middle of a scene. I never felt like it dragged or even, really, slowed down. It’s not that it’s filled with non-stop action, but every detail of the characters’ lives is so real and perfect that I have no problem spending a chapter reading about a character’s daily, mundane routine.

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I Shall Wear Midnight by Terry Pratchett

This was the most relaxed read I’ve had the pleasure of experiencing in quite awhile. It was awesome; it was Terry Pratchett. If ever you’ve read a Terry Pratchett novel, you know what I’m talking about. His books are funny, quick, easy to read, non-stressful, and often delightfully punny. It was a 400-page novel, but it felt like a 200-pager. I love Terry Pratchett’s reliability; I love being able to pick up any of his Discworld novels and know I’m in for a good, hilarious, effortless couple of days of reading. I wholeheartedly recommend any of his Discworld books to anyone over the age of 8, whether ye be a Tolstoy fanboy or a book-a-year reader. There’s a little something for everyone, and I Shall Wear Midnight is no exception.

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Between Now and Infinity (a poem)

And the ground is flat.
Endless.
Cracked
dry
dead.
A riverbed splits the dusty hellish landscape,
a maze filled with loss, filled with the thought
of water.
The thought that fills all of our heads,
the memory of water,
a reminder of life,
a shadow.
We are shadows
we are shadowless
we are memories and we are figments.
The hard brown earth rolls flat and infinite and
uninterrupted
by flora or fauna or fossil.
There is nothing and
nothing
and the ground is flat.

           

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A Fraction of the Whole by Steve Toltz

This was an amazing book. It was thought-provoking, it was immersive, it was hilarious, it was emotional, it was beautifully written and highly original. It was a very interesting reading experience, though, because although it does have a plot, the plot isn’t really the focal point of the book. I couldn’t really pin down the focal point of the book, honestly. I still can’t. This isn’t such a problem, normally. I don’t mind not being able to figure out what a book is about, as long as it’s captivating and well written and everything. This month, though, I happened to meet a lot of new people, with job interviews and other such events, and a key thing I always mention when I meet new people is that I adore books, which always yields the question, “What are you reading?” So I say, “A Fraction of the Whole, by Steve Toltz.” And they haven’t heard of this, because it’s an Australian author’s debut novel, so they ask, “Oh? What’s that about?”

And I can’t answer them.

“Well, I’m, um, not really sure. It’s kind of, about this guy, and his dad? And, they’re really misanthropic and philosophical? It’s really good.”

I expected that the further along I got, the more I would be able to accurately answer that question, but it never really happened, because it’s about how people suck but we have to love them anyway, and it’s about how hard it is to find an identity when you want to fit in but don’t see anything worth fitting into, and it’s about everything, and really the plot’s hardly even worth mentioning.

But this is a review, and reviews need to mention plots, so here it goes.

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On Judging Art

I watch my heart pulse in a dark pool of congealing blood.

I shift it slightly to the left.

On the canvas, the blood is starting to dry. I tilt it at a slight angle so that the thick, brownish liquid can drip, like old cream, away from my heart.

I take one of my rinsed-off lungs from the palette on my right and place the shiny pink organ across the gooey streaks of blood falling from the heart.

Satisfied, I grab my camera and photograph the piece.

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Cat’s Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut

Given all the hype that surrounds this novel, and given how thoroughly I enjoyed Mother Night, I was really excited to re-read Cat’s Cradle. I read it once, a bunch of years ago, and i remember thinking it was good but nothing amazing. Looking back, I figured I just wasn’t old enough, knowledgeable, whatever, to appreciate it. Turns out I was spot on in how I felt about it, even then. Yes, readers, I was disappointed by it. Very, very disappointed.

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The best authors in the world, and their books

10. Dave Eggers - What is the What?

9. Douglas Coupland - jPodPlayer OneGeneration Aand All Families are Psychotic

8. George Orwell - Down and Out in Paris and London, and “Politics and the English Language”

7. Michael Chabon - The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay

6. Kurt VonnegutMother Night

5. David Mitchell - Cloud Atlas

4. Jonathan Safran Foer - Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, and Everything is Illuminated.

3. Haruki Murakami - The Wind-Up Bird Chronicleand Kafka on the Shore

2. Joseph Heller - Catch-22

1. Ernest Hemingway - A Farewell to Arms

Honourable mentions: These guys have all been kicked off the list as my tastes have changed, but they still hold dear spots in my heart nonetheless. Max Barry (Syrup), Nick Hornby (About a Boy), Terry Pratchett (any of the Discworld books, particularly any concerning the Watch or Death), Roald Dahl (everything he’s ever written ever), Chuck Palahniuk (Fight Club)


The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson

I hate this book so much. I’ve hated it for years, ever since I first saw it on the bookshelf in Coles. I hated it before it was popular. Sometimes, when I go to bookstores, in addition to finding great new things to read, I make fun of the dumbest-looking books on display. This was one of those books, way back in 2007 or so, that made me scoff and mourn the state of literature today. Right up there with Clive Cussler. Unfortunately, as the book soared in popularity, more and more of my friends (whose opinions I respect) read the book and highly recommended it to me! I refused, my hatred for it increased tenfold, I hated it for no good reason other than it looked stupid but was getting popular. It recently got to the point where so many wonderful people had recommended it to me that in order to maintain my hatred for it, I had to justify that hatred. That meant reading it. Sigh.

The good news is, I still hate it, and now I have reasons to back up that statement other than “It has a stupid title and bad cover art.” I didn’t enjoy any moment I spent reading it, and after I finished I was not blown away by its genius or its depth or its poignancy, I was just glad to be finished it and able to move on to bigger, better things. The prose is flat and passionless, the content is unoriginal and convoluted for the sake of being convoluted, and the gritty details are excessively gritty. It’s obvious from the way he writes that Larsson used to be a journalist; this is not something that should be obvious. You know who else was a journalist? Ernest Hemingway. George Orwell. Hunter S. Thompson. Their prose is still captivating and full and vivid, and their novels are still compelling and entertaining and profound. According to Wikipedia, the manuscripts for the Millenium series novels were found after his death, and he had essentially written them just for fun in his spare time (really? Who writes horrifically brutal crime novels about serial rape and murder for fun?), without any real intention of publishing them. Maybe they should have considered that, before publishing them.

 

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The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood

The dystopia Atwood writes for us in this novel takes the objectification of women to a whole other level. Where nowadays objectifying a woman means seeing her only as a sexual object, an object of desire and lust and pleasure, The Handmaid’s Tale turns women into objects that can be traded in for a better model after too many failures, objects that are for display, reproduction, discipline, and household chores only. Desire, lust, and pleasure are not available in the future she creates, are punishable by death. The novel is narrated by the Handmaid Offred, and we are shown how far religious extremism, sexism, corruption, power, and rebellion can push the boundaries of what the masses will call acceptable.

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number9dream by David Mitchell

In classic David Mitchell style, this novel is stylistically immaculate, explores many different voices, tells multiple stories, and gives the impression of being highly symbolic (I question the legitimacy of some of the implied symbolism in his writing; I think he just writes small coincidences in such a way that makes them appear to have layers of profound meaning. Or maybe I’m just not picking up what he’s throwing down). The story follows a small-town Japanese boy, Eiji Miyake, to Tokyo in search of his unknown father. Into this touching coming-of-age story, Mitchell throws some Yakuza action, absentee mother drama, rocky hometown past, and an uncomfortable one-sided love at first sight relationship. It’s not a particularly original story, but I enjoyed Eiji’s voice and it’s just over-the-top enough that I was sufficiently thrilled and stimulated by the love, loss, action, and drama.

As captivating as the voice is, the structure and pacing of this book are lacking. It’s split into eight chapters, and each chapter has two timelines told simultaneously. They’re not exactly two different stories; sometimes it’s telling the same story from different points in time, other times they’re flashbacks or dreams inserted into the main storyline, other times they’re hardly even related to the story. Sometimes this second-storyline thing is effective in creating suspense or providing back story, but other times it really only serves as an interruption. The story gets off to an incredibly slow start with constant interruptions and, once the ball is rolling in the second, third and fourth chapters, interrupts itself again in the fifth with a completely irrelevant and only sometimes funny second-story. Mitchell seemed intent on thwarting the story’s ability to gather momentum, honestly.

I was also quite disappointed with the ending. It tied up most of the story’s loose ends in predictable, unsatisfying ways, but then creates more apparently just for the sake of having an ambiguous ending. It seemed like a cop out on Mitchell’s part, a cop out that could have easily been avoided by just tying up all of the loose ends in more creative ways. I would have been okay with it if he’d left some of the loose ends untied, even, rather than making up an excuse for new ones LITERALLY in the last page. It’s also not until the very end of the book that Mitchell decides to explore the number nine, and it’s a pretty anticlimactic exploration.

I still liked this book more than I did Ghostwritten, because I actually enjoyed my time spent reading it for the most part. I hated almost every moment I spent reading Ghostwritten. It was exhausting. Once I finished it, I was able to look back on it and admit that it’s absolutely incredible and the work of a genius, but the actual experience of reading it was not entertaining. number9dream entertained me, and I had a good time reading it. It’s not as intricate or as complex or as much of a masterpiece as Ghostwritten is, and it was actually pretty disappointing in a lot of ways, but I really enjoyed reading it. I would recommend starting with Cloud Atlas or Black Swan Green, though, because both of those are amazing in every way. Then you can give this one a shot.

Happy reading! <3

Top ten reads of 2011

Fair warning, these aren’t books that came out in 2011, they’re books I read in 2011. Actually, not a single one of them came out in 2011. Or even close to it. I read 31 books in 2011, and these are my favourite ten. I highly recommend each and every one of them! (The links are to blog posts in which I discuss my thoughts on the books. Some are more coherent than others, and not all of them actually had a full post dedicated to them. Sorry)

What were your favourite 2011 reads?

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